It is so very hard to tell Matthew’s story on paper. He was so much more than words typed on a page.
We were blessed with a beautiful, perfect baby boy on January 3, 1996. Our first-born son, he came into this world with a fully developed set of lungs that he was NOT afraid to use! We had four years of ignorant, blissful life unaware of the reality of brain tumors, cancer, MRI’s, CT scans, radiation, chemo, surgeries, and the fact that children DO get cancer.
For the next nine years, Matthew endured all of that and so much more. I like to say that my Matthew was full of grace – and he was – but he also struggled with staying brave, he cried before each surgery, he fought the anesthesia before radiation. That is the reality of nine years of his life.
When not going through all the “stuff” that comes with a brain tumor, and sometimes WHILE going through all that “stuff,” Matthew still enjoyed life. He loved music – listening, making it, going to concerts. KISS was his favorite band – courtesy of his Dad. Matthew loved to draw, mostly in pencil, sometimes in colored pencil. Dragons were one of his favorite things to draw as he got older. When he would be in Pre-K Sunday class at church, he would flip the coloring sheet over to the blank side and make his own picture. He was truly an original in every sense of the world.
In the last couple of years before he passed away, Matthew went through multiple surgeries, more radiation, lost his vision, started having seizures, and endured chemotherapy. One of the bright spots for both of us was seeing Sherry’s smiling face (and the treats she brought with her!) at Tumor Clinic on Tuesday mornings. Yum. Matthew LOVED the Holiday Party every year – we were never allowed to miss that for anything.
Matthew touched so many people during his short life and continues to do so even now. We lost our precious first-born on Mother’s Day – May 10, 2009. His little brother, Cameron, lost his big brother. I am so thankful that Cameron was old enough that he will always have memories of Matthew.
Matthew Tracy is forever a star in my heart.
Written by his proud momma,